I wrote my story thinking previously, thinking that would be it, one rape out of 3 where I almost died by the hands of the rapist in Arkansas, but that just didn’t happen, I hate to report.
Arkansas has a plague of men in its ranks, and the women who protect them.
There is a gang of people who are pro-rape culture and victim-blaming running rampant in Arkansas online. I have copies of text messages, e-mails, and more from the cyber stalking and harassment. I even had to hire a Cyber Investigation team.
That’s how much people abuse one person; I just so happen to be female, when they are allowed.
I recently heard that word on the street is “She’s built like a Chinese woman.” If that helps you put in context the things said about me as the victim of now 16 total rapists. Most of them I met through online dating apps, also known as hook-up rapist apps. There is no vetting or checking for sex offenders on these apps, new or old.
I recently read a study on the National Library of Medicine (it’s free, and you can read scholarly scientific studies and articles from around the world), regarding all types of health issues, much like the studies done on the brains of sex offenders and rapists.
Scientists discovered in Taiwan on July 7, 2016 :
“To our knowledge, this is the first study indicating white matter abnormalities in rapists. Findings indicate abnormalities in white matter connectivity in brain regions involved in reward/motivation and moral judgment, which may predispose rapists to be both over-responsive to sexual reward stimuli and also to make inappropriate moral decisions.”
Or in scientific terms
“Rapists showed significantly increased fractional anisotropy in the internal capsule in the thalamus, caudate, and globus pallidus, and also in white matter tracts near the angular gyrus, posterior cingulate, frontal pole, lateral occipital cortex, and genu compared to controls matched for age, gender, and educational status. Reduced fractional anisotropy was observed in rapists in the posterior cingulum and in the inferior fronto-occipital fasciculus.”
In other words, they are hard-wired to be what they are; they are addicted to rape like crackheads to put it plainly. It’s not the victim’s fault for getting raped by a rapist.
I have reported 5 rapes out of 16, and the Criminal Justice system in Arkansas has decided to put me in a psych ward repeatedly to make me more docile and less delusional because I think rape is wrong. Never ask the question “Were you raped?” They assumed otherwise; several rape kits were never submitted. And I have been victim-blamed by the medical system, as well as the criminal justice system, and socially.
I have experienced misdiagnosis of bipolar disorder time and time again to explain away and blame me for being a rape victim with ADHD and C-PTSD. (I got another opinion from a neuropsychologist) I have tried to work with the system, and it has created such items as learned helplessness, secondary victimization, deepened shame and self-doubt, triggered my trauma responses, affected my health physically from the misuse of psychiatric medications by my doctors, as well as communication struggles.
I recently wrote my will because I can’t find a job in Arkansas that matches my intelligence and moral code. Pretty much all I’ve found is lazy cowards fattened on their own self-delusional egos, without any recourse for their actions. Let alone not counting how much it has cost me financially, regarding money I don’t have.
Wake up, we have a pandemic in Arkansas society, in American Society, and in the World.
I have a suggestion and unpopular opinion: make rape a crime punishable by capital punishment, especially in cases of pedophilia. Or simply, instead of making it public opinion, use the science-based information we have invested collectively and researched to know the answer staring us right in the face to change the societal standards and attitudes toward sexual assault. We have the undeniable proof.
Recognize it as the crime that it is: power and control using sex as a weapon for assault. They are never going to change, and if they say they are, once again, you were manipulated by a sociopath and a psychopath in one mind. Educate yourself and take responsibility for your lack of responsibility towards your fellow human beings.
Sexual Assault is not normal; it is a disease that needs to be eradicated. Because if it happened to your son or your daughter, I’m sure you’d wish you had taken it more seriously.
Speaking from close personal experience, I beseech you, reader, to take a stand against the fight against normalizing rape culture in your own backyards. Stop putting the victims on trial for the perpetrators’ behaviors.
Source: https://pmc.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/articles/PMC4936222/
Also published on Medium.com: https://medium.com/@carolyncrocker/take-accountability-for-rape-culture-6ba339e87c4f
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