Bound By Texas’

west dry dust dear god no

better than homelessness

countryside dear god why?

undo let me come through

out of the quicksand sucking me down

out

take my soul away

landside

cry

grey

gray

matter what matters dear god

cleanse replace cleanse replace

with bad then a string

no one I want to be

Do not influence me

to become like you

be my own person

take your attributes

vigilance

destroyed

Imperious

make me solid impervious

to them helmet me win

god forgive me.

I care nothing about you

or you

or you

or him

or her

or them.

And I desire

to never

not for them

for him

the soul mate

Yes

the soul girls

yes the soul man

yes OHM my God

destroy

destroyed this pertty mouth of mine

I hate what I

say

what I do

Who I know

Who I knew

Who I didn’t know

The Cost is so high

Too expensive

for my ability

kaleidoscope

chaos

not very pretty

ugly

ugly

ugly

all is ugly

forgive me for

my taste?

oblique it’s all oblique

strangers

touching my emotions

touching me

I never trust you

I have no reason but to say good bye

I want to say

Hello

to love

dramatically

over the moon

welcoming

god please I need your help

your fire

power I’m dried out

or over saturated.

I can’t do this anymore

the fear

too much fear.

do not forget about me

help me out.

Dried from tears

Drunk on tears salty salty

no sweet.

no sweat.

And who is the true warrior?

All I have met

are destroyers

to my heart

my world

my soul

my mind

not so true

but still untrustworthy.

Ever where

all over

the world

This

I do not want

or desire.

Where the fuck are you?!

playing tricks on my mind

psychic connection

to who emotional connection to who?

do you realize what your doing to me?

do you dare to care

G.O.D.

well do you?

Punk?

punk!

little girl bitch

retarded

handicapped

immature

Adult bitch

Fuck you

crazy crazy scary little bitch.

I need I want

Polar opposites

Truly safe to love

to give my heart to

my most precious part of me

is

me.

I’ve given myself away

so much

to nobody

who is everybody

it’s not right.

devalued me

like a product

over

and

over

and over again.

No remorse

no sanity

I can tell the difference

between sane and insane.

Take on all the blame

Dear God

I feel the future and I hate it.

I’m scared of it.

Texas

taxes

faxes

foxes

I want to avoid it

It grosses me out and

hits me

right

deep in the chest.

F.R.O.G. people

Fuck the Frog

There is no prince!

By Carrie Crocker

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